FRONT AND CENTER


     Loneliness and independence aren't opposites but twins, gemini states of being that can give even the shyest among us, courage to stride forth. Yet Maryo J. delos Reyes and Nora Aunor, paired as director and lead actor for Naglalayag (Angora Films International, 2004), capture this not-really-a paradox in a cerebral pas de deux, as if each has found an unspoken understanding in each other. Their seemingly disparate sensibilities - Delos Reyes's attention to craft and sense of decorum, Aunor's fortright crispiness, which serves as a fortress for her eggshell fragility - merge in this odd-couple picture. Naglalayag is about how fear of living is more paralyzing than fear of death. Its ending should seem sad, yet it's piercingly jubilant, like a celebratory cocktail with a complex, bittersweet finish. Delos Reyes heightens the film's tragedy by actively empathizing with all of his subjects, especially Dorinda, whose mild restlessness is treated with profound sensitivity. Aunor beautifully imbues Dorinda with a recognizable sense of discontent (she's not unhappy, per se, but she's quietly weary of middle-aged life doldrums), and Delos Reyes supports her performance with warm compositions and delicate close-ups, placing her perspective front and center. Aunor's eyes always seem to be giving her feelings away, and so every time she widens, lowers or shifts them there is a great deal of suspense.

     Naglalayag is a romance between Dorinda and Noah (Yul Servo), two people in search of an unnameable connection, and we warm to the way they find solace in each other. But the fleeting nature of this affair is its most golden element; it is romantic precisely because it can't last. In the end, Naglalayag is really a romance of the self, a celebration of the person you can become when someone else touches you deeply. We're all souvenirs of our own experiences, and what we take away from love affairs is sometimes of more value than what we gain when we try to wrest them into some ill-fitting frame of permanence. A kept memento is a sad thing, but a memory remains alive and supple forever. It's the flower you don't catch, the one you never crush by pressing it into a book. Dorinda's triumph in Naglalayag isn't a conquering of loneliness - some form of that will always be with her. Dorinda's victory is that she has said yes - not just to a younger man but to herself. Loneliness can't be cured, but it can change shape. What appealed to me in the idea of Naglalayag? Loneliness - a more common emotion than love, but we speak less about it. We are ashamed of it. We think perhaps that it shows a deficiency in ourselves. That if we were more attractive, more entertaining, and less ordinary, we would not be lonely.


Sound Engineers: Nestor Arvin Mutia, Angie Reyes

Editor: Jesus Navarro

Music: Gardy Labad

Production Designer: Randy Gamier

Director of Photography: Odyssey 'Odie' Flores

Screenplay: Irma Dimaranan

Directed By: Maryo J. delos Reyes